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May 25th, 2008

06:03 pm This made me sad on the inside. kiwi And this.. Well, I just think this is funny. stupid bird Current Location: here Current Mood: still amused

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05:39 pm ROFLMAO Current Location: somewhere Current Mood: amused

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May 14th, 2008

09:52 pm I am HAPPEH. Current Location: Lovie's house Current Mood: SUPER

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May 9th, 2008

03:33 pm Warning: So, I've been gone for a LONG time I know. And until I get back in the set of writing on a continuous basis, these posts will be nothing but rubish. This is one of the first sites that I had to get reconnected with, and altho it doesn't look like they update very often, I have been gone for long enough that it's all still new to me. And here's another one. Current Location: Shane's Current Mood: amused Tags: i'm back. holy fuck.

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December 26th, 2007

11:00 pm So, Wayne and I got into a horrid argument and temporarily broke up. Now that we've talked everything out, he's decided that he's not going to the Army Rangers. I'm not really completely sure how I feel about it tho. I'm ecstatic that he's not going, but at the same time I really don't want to be the reason why he doesn't. I'm really afraid that down the road it's going to come between us. I don't want him to have the regret of not going into something that he really wants for me. I don't want it to cause a rift betwix us. He's opinion of that is that he leaving and expecting me to wait for him was very selfish of him. (Of course, I think it's selfish of me to stay just for me. *sigh*) He also says that it's his decision and that I'm the most important thing in his life. We talked today about getting married. We talked a lot about it before, but now that he's not leaving it's more of a serious "this is gonna happen." I'm pretty excited about that. I really love him a lot. Now all he has to do is ask me "officially" to marry him. I think it would piss him off a lot if I went and asked him before he could set up some really elaborate way of being romantic and asking me. So, unofficially, I think we're pretty much engaged. I've already discussed and found my maid-of-honor. You know who you are, girl, and I love you. Wayne and I are mostly agreement on everything that we've talked about for our wedding and that just makes me think that it's really supposed to work out. It makes me happy. Good feelings overwhelm me when I'm with him. I guess I really need to buck up and be worthy of this great guy that I've got. I'm not sure I'm up to the task, but I'm gonna if nothing else kill myself trying. Not that I really have to. He loves me the way that I am, and he loves my frailties for what they are... me being human. I'm glad he's okay with my being human, cuz I'm very VERY far from perfect. (Aren't we all, eh?) Other than all of that, things have been rather boring around here. Everyone's back on break and I'm yay for getting to see Linz more than once every couple of weekends. *nudges her and makes her mess up on her game* ^__^ I'm been trying to get out of EnP (right, like I haven't been trying to do that for the last year *scoffs at self*), but for once I think I might actually do it. I had an interview up at Game Stop for a management position but because I want full time the store manager who seemed to love me said she had to get her DM to talk to me before I could get the job. UNFORTUNATELY, that day the DM couldn't make it to talk to me, and now she's traveling with the RM trying to figure God only knows what up. So, I'm playing this awful waiting game and everyday that I don't get a call, I think that they just didn't want me there. Fuck my self esteem. On the brighter side, I did a follow up and was told that they're looking to open a new store in BelVernon, which would be more than awesome. And because it's a brand new store they need a full staff. So, I'm almost guaranteed a job. I'm just really impatient and want it now and not later. Le sigh. Hmm... I think everything else has worked itself out into a non-entertaining boring situation. Not that all of this hasn't been overly explained and probably everyone quit reading a paragraph and a half in, but that's okay. I'm used to it. ^___^ And I'm happy. I like being happy with life even if it's only for a little while like normal. But for once... I think this happy isn't going to leave. I sure as hope it won't. Current Location: Linz's Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Elite Beat Agents replaying over and over as Linz loses Tags: woah.

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December 19th, 2007

07:11 pm Guess who's pumped for a new job...? Me. ^___^ Current Location: Linz's Current Mood: content

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December 5th, 2007

10:01 pm I made a new friend. Go me. Current Location: Erni's Current Mood: chipper

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September 30th, 2007

06:41 pm - Explainations... Okay, so I've been getting a lot of "WTF!?" from friends and such about my last post about me quitting school. I thank all of you for your concern, cuz I know that you wouldn't say anything if you didn't care. First: No, this is probably not a permanent thing. I just need some time to myself to figure out what's going on in my own head. I've been trying to figure this out for a long time, and I'm not really getting anywhere. So, I'm taking time to myself to think, and relax. Not that I've done much relaxing. I work all the time that I was in school. So, it's not like I've just been sitting around doing nothing this whole time. I wish it was that easy, but I'm poor and so I need the money to keep going. Moeny that doesn't just show up on one's doorstep. Other than that, not much is going on. I'll post later about the boyfriend's military hopes, and the show I'm doing at the end of October. But the games at it's final minutes... and somehow, we're losing. Current Mood: nervous

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September 21st, 2007

12:08 pm - I'm not a smart cookie. I just dropped out of school. Oops. Current Mood: bored

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September 14th, 2007

01:12 pm Ring a ring of rosies Pocket full of posies To ashes, to ashes We all fall dead Current Location: cal Current Mood: sad

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September 7th, 2007

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12:06 pm He says he wants to be a soldier. That thought scares me to death. I don't want to lose him. And I want to support him. But I don't see how I can do both. Current Location: Cal Current Mood: worried

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August 27th, 2007

10:11 pm - work is.. what can I say. I'm going to school full time and Larry somehow managed to still schedule me 5 days this week. I sometimes think that the man is trying to kill me. Or he's trying to be nice and make sure that I still have money to go to school with. Or he's low on staff until the new girls get fully trained. I'm not really sure which one it is, but I have the feeling I'm going to be very tired a lot. Not like I'm not already. Le sigh. Current Location: Homizzle Current Mood: sore

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08:57 am - Normal.. hah. Well, life should soon be returning to a normal person's schedule. School's back in (bah) and the show's done, and I'm done working midnights. (That is if I'm not fired and don't know it yet. haha) The show went well (I know none of you who read this came to see it. >P ) The last day I fucked up a really big line, and there was no way of recovering from it.. but hey.. that's what happens in live theatre, right? Yeah, I still kinda feel like an idiot about it, but what can I say? *shrugs* It happens, and it's done and over with now. *sigh* I've very tired. Current Location: Cal Library. Current Mood: tired

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August 12th, 2007

07:06 pm It's been awhile, Livejournal. Too long, I'd say. Not much has changed in the however-many-months I haven't posted. Wayne's going through some self-examination processes, and as he digs deeper, I think he's realizing that he doesn't like being the 23yr. old that lives in his parents' basement. I can understand those feelings. I hate living at home at 19. I can't imagine putting up with it for another 4 years... though with the way things are going, it seems I may just be here that long. Saving money is harder than one would think when your car keeps breaking down, and I have to buy books.. and I'm afraid to look up how much those are going to cost me. Yeah, I know I should have gotten them when there was more of a chance that I'd get used books, but I just couldn't force myself to think about having to go back to school. Now that I've only got two weeks, I don't have much of a choice. I do however, have plenty to do before I have to be back at school. I'm working 5 days a week at EnP. Sun-Thurs 10-6am. It's been kinda tough. Working midnight has really screwed with my system. I've been getting sick and what-not from being so worn down constantly. Right now I have this horrid cough, that just will NOT go away. Josh says it's from smoking, but you'd think that a smoker's cough would be more in the lungs and less in the throat. I don't know. I'm sure my air conditioner blowing straight on my bed has something to do with it. I get sick every summer when I have to run my air conditioner. Of course, it's also soon to be "that time of the month," and I usually get sick just before then, so it's also extremely possible that it could merely be that. My mother thinks everytime I get sick, that I'm prego. She said that everytime I get up hacking up my lung that she's gets scared. I wish she had a little more faith in me. But I guess when you fucked up and had a kid at 21, and then your oldest daughter seems to fuck up so much, you can only guess that your other daughter is going to make a mistake like that. On a good note however, rehearsals start tomorrow for "Knock 'Em Dead," a murder mystery that thouroughly involves teh audience in the outcome of the show. I've got rehearsal something like 6-9 everyday before I have to go to work 10m6.. this should be interesting. haha. I'm actualy kind of looking foward to being onstage again. I haven't done it in so long, I'm nervous as hell, but in the same respect, I'm really excited. It's gonna be tough, but I get to be a slutty cheerleader trying to sleep my way to the top. haha The character is basically my opposite, but I think it'll be a lot of fun. Of well, we'll see. My eggrolls are done. Have a good day, Mr. Journal. Current Location: House Current Mood: tired Current Music: Elmo's Song

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August 4th, 2007

08:53 pm - Quote of the day: "mmmm... blow job." Current Location: Teh boyfriend's Current Mood: good Current Music: Hey there, Delilah

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July 17th, 2007

11:58 am - In memory of Ron. Current Mood: amused

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June 19th, 2007

06:08 pm - Current Theme Song Well you know those times When you feel like there's a sign there on your back Says I don't mind if ya kick me Seems like everybody has Things go from bad to worse You'd think they can't get worse than that And then they do You step off the straight and narrow And you don't know where you are Use the needle of your compass To sew up your broken heart Ask directions from a genie In a bottle of Jim Beam And she lies to you That's when you learn the truth If you're going through hell Keep on going, don't slow down If you're scared, don't show it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there Well I been deep down in that darkness I been down to my last match Felt a hundred different demons Breathing fire down my back And I knew that if I stumbled I'd fall right into the trap that they were laying, yeah But the good news Is there's angels everywhere out on the street Holding out a hand to pull you back up on your feet The one's that you've been dragginig for so long You're on your knees You might as well be praying Guess what I'm saying If your going through hell Keep on going, don't slow down If you're scared don't show it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there Yeah, If you're going through hell Keep on moving, face that fire Walk right through it You might get out Before the devil even knows your there Current Mood: sore

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June 18th, 2007

11:01 pm ZOMG Current Mood: amused

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June 10th, 2007

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